a phonecall...

I don't like talking to her on phone. I think about her for hrs n hrs before making a call and end up with a talk of few minutes. Instead, I prefer chatting to her on net, it gives some more extra time to me to think and make those stupid jokes, its just that I can't see her smile. I want to tell her so many things, but even after thinking a lot, my memory goes blank wen she comes in front. I want to tell her how much I care for her, think of her, how much I respect her, how much I dream of her, how much I love her. I go completely dumbfound, when she suddenly comes in front of me. Whenever I scroll my phonebook to check someones number, I stop at her name and start thinking of her. I think about an hour whether to call her or not and then decide not to call. Because I know she's also thinking in the same way but not for me. I get frustrated with that thought. And then get back to work, which is to think of her.